Thoughts...

It is very interesting to me, to hear people say...you look so calm. I've gotten that a lot lately, well in the past few weeks. I guess I am calm, not by my own nature though. I have moments of panic, moments of "what are we thinking". But for the most part I feel content. There are so many "unknowns" as with any pregnancy.
There are many "surprises" with the "birth" of a child.

A friend told me a couple of days ago, with any pregnancy when the woman looks at the child if she is honest she looks at him/her and says, "who are you". Yes you are excited and you love that little package but you don't know them yet. You will spend the next lifetime learning about them.

when I heard her say this, I took a deep breath, that peace went even deeper into my spirit! That is the unknown and yet the exciting part of bringing new life into a family, learning who that person is, being a part of developing and bringing up that person's heart!

And so our prayer continues to be that even though we "know" the picture of Jake, he knows nothing of us. We pray he has seen our picture and that they have explained who we are but... for those first few hours maybe days (hope not) as a child comes into the world and cries for the comfort of the womb, we pray that the cry for his orphanage and those things that have comforted him for the past 2 years as we've journeyed to get him will not last long.
That the Lord will give him this "calm" as He has given me to know in Jake's heart that we have been chosen by God to give him HOME.