Well after a long hiatus I am back. Not sure why I felt the need to stop writing. Maybe I felt a little too vulnerable, maybe I was a bit overwhelmed with it all. However, whatever the "feelings" I am back, like it or not.
For all of my "counseling buddies" out there, we all know the feeling of putting ourselves out there and on the line and I sometimes the pressure begins to well up and well maybe I just snapped.
Funny thing is, I feel more in touch with being a mom. Not that I feel more in "control" just that I feel better about all the loss of control I've had in my life for the past 7 mos. I don't get as upset about not being able to just run in and run out of a store. I don't sweat not having the time to get on and reconnect with people on the internet.
And didn't feel the pressure to have to write everyday about my experiences. I just am accepting that I am NOT super mom and I'm ok with that . It was way too much pressure and I folded, but I was never meant to handle it all as well.
I have had some great times just relaxing and being a family with Ken and Jake and also spent some time up with our friends at their cabin up North. I have to say in some ways I have begun to forget what my life was like before Jake.
We've gotten into a routine which is good and I've gotten some great babysitters so that I can attend to my other "jobs" I have to do. I am happy that winter is about over, I couldn't stand much more of it!
Well that is all for now! Michelle, I'm sure you are somewhat "thrilled" that I'm back. I think part of it was my new "do"
I do love you all that are reading this, I trust you with my heart and I hope to be writing more.
PS, this pic of Jake is one of my favs. I have it blown up in black and white in our house!
2 comments:
Debs- I am glad you're back! I didn't 'okay' this bkgd with you, though I hope you're all right with it!
Good post! xoxo-ms
I'm glad you are back to, Debbie. We have so much to catch up on. I'll email you later. But, I hope you know that your voice, however infrequently I hear it these days, is still important in my life. I'm glad your blogging...you have important things to share...but you can do it in your own time, and at your own pace. The rest of us will always be anxiously waiting. :)
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